You’ve been one of the best and worst years of my life.
When you began my resolution was to say yes to more things; this I can say I stuck to and is what made you a year I won’t actually forget. Even if during the summer my most memorable liver-damaging nights were the ones I ironically have the least memory of…. Thank god for snapchat stories.
Let’s start with me saying thank you. Thank you for being the year that gave me countless memories, GCSE results, laughter, piercings, holidays, drunken messages, family, arguments, opportunities, animals, a break up, fallouts, wonderful nights in summer spent with wonderful people, sixth form (actually I won’t thank you for that)… The list goes on. It’s weird because you were the year I’ve been dreading, after all I did my GCSE’s and for someone who stresses as much as me that was enough for me to condemn this year as an inevitable train wreck. Yet 2015, you feel like a send off to my early teenage self as this time next year I will be applying for universities – mental.
You brought me the best summer I could’ve ever wished for; spending more time outside than inside. I’ve never spent so much time with my friends at least every other day and I wouldn’t have changed that; whether it be a barbeque at night or sitting in eating kettle chips and drinking Pepsi max (if you know you know). I don’t really want to say goodbye to you 2015 because you brought out the adventure in me, proven by my lairiness towards a police officer at Reading Festival…. In my defence he was rather rude. But still you sent me to one of my favourite childhood Greek islands of Lefkas, a beautiful place that lives and breathes warmth and welcome, combined with its beautiful people. Thank you for that.
You even made me write a list of all the places I one day hope to travel to, and as a result I’ve already started planning my interrail trip. Due to my own personal problems I would never even think I’d have the courage to go and travel; yet now it’s the only goal I know I want. The world is a big place and I want to see as much of it as I can! Thank you for making me want the adrenaline rush of thrill. Even though you won’t be there to experience it with me I will always know you gave me the motive to get up and do something with my life.
Yes you’ve been amazing but you’ve also been my worst enemy. You gave me heightened mental health problems, intense levels of stress to the point where I feel like I need Shia Labeouf to sit with me and tell me just do it, but you also brought alarm to my mums heart. I am thankful for this because if not recognised she wouldn’t be here next year. My mum has had three life threatening illnesses, two of which she went against the odds in terms of survival. Absolute hero. The fact that you brought attention to her problems this year means that the next years to come will be lucky enough to experience the same beautiful smile and radiating personality that I get to experience from my mum each day. It’s a shame you only saw her in painful and grey times but it means she will just carry on upwards from now. Sorry for being angry for a lot of my time with you, it’s been hard to get to grips with what you’ve thrown at me.
Regardless of the negativity, 2015 you’ve been magical and I hope I can say exactly the same thing 365 days from now. New Years resolution: Keep saying yes to everything. And also stop eating so much 4 for £1 co-op bread.